The Best Kind of Gift

I have always been competent at my job - but something held me back and I did not perform at the level of my full potential. I waited to take cues from others to act like a leader. Recently, I had a particularly difficult day when I felt bullied and pushed around by my peers throughout the day. I was in tears by the time I reached home. Fortunately I had a one/one session scheduled with Jay that evening. I first started by releasing the 'obviously' negative emotions about the fear and stress during the day. As I continued, I realized what was surfacing was the image/feeling of a difficult event that had occurred a year ago. I had taken a business trip with a colleague who behaved inappropriately with me. As I continued tapping I felt a lot of vulnerability and helplessness and some anger. As per Jay's intuition we moved from tapping and I narrated the incident to her in full detail.

The breakthrough for me was that she gently pointed out to me that I had responded to the situation with a lot of strength, power and grace. I hadn't previously seen my own response through that lens. I had intuitively responded in a way that let my colleague save face in the situation, while I didn't let myself be coerced into a situation that was against my values. Where I got the strength from, I didn't know. I didn't even recognize I had the strength and grace in me. I hadn't connected with that part of myself. When Jay registered this specific aspect of myself during our session, she directed the session so that we stopped tapping and I stayed with myself, and focused on connecting to my spirit and strength which had guided me effortlessly to take the action I had taken in that difficult situation. It may sound somewhat abstract, but in that moment in time, I connected with my inner strength, my spirit and my power and showed myself gratitude for possessing these. I took all the time I needed just to be with myself. I felt a lot of gratitude from myself now that I was recognizing this spirit who wanted to shine!

Not only was that a beautiful moment for me - the next day when I returned to face these 'hostile' peers, I was able to act almost effortlessly from that same position of strength, calmness and focus. I found myself taking charge of a situation, which just the previous day had reduced me to tears. I behaved with an authority that I had never been able to assume before. Not arrogance, but a calm authority that came from knowing my own power and capability. It was quite an amazing experience for me. Now I will work through my fear that this strength won't last by connecting with myself everyday and expressing gratitude for my spirit every single day.

The best kind of gift that you can give someone is the ability to believe in themselves and to recognize the gifts they possess. I have received many such gifts from practicing EFT with Jay over the past few months now. This may be the best one yet! I am truly grateful to Jay's intuition that simply knows how to direct a session towards what I need the most at that time. What a relief and joy to have found a caring teacher who can nourish my spirit. Thank you Jay, for making room in your heart for so many!